Me to You

Thursday, September 29, 2005
Title__*::stress..

haiz.. been so so so busy for the past 2 weeks.. and will be even more busy for e next 3 weeks! i really have no life man.. its only projects after projects. go sch, WORK.. come home, WORK.. sianz.. and realise tt ever since Jason left, i dun go out to e living room for breakfast le.. i eat, work and slp on my study table.. its like a multi functional table.. and e hse is really so so so sian.. luckily still got my Kavi.. haha.. still brought some laughters in e hse.. if not e hse really is.. haiz..

and i have been feeling so depressed nowadays.. haiz.. its like all e lonely feelings are coming back to me again.. i think partly because i feeling stress from all e work load.. and that alot of frenz are leaving now.. and they are really my close frenz here.. and tt we kept toking abt me leaving in 1 mths time.. and i hate to think abt it coz i noe tt after i leave here, e next year when i come back they all wun be here anymore!!!

i hate the fact that when i wake up the next morning, i have 1 less fren!!!!! this happens again today.. yesterday, a group of us were still chatting at Jeff's hse (for his farewell). everybody were still laughing and toking.. then leave the hse as usual (his hse is a usual gathering place for us).. but everyone were saying 一路顺风 (bon voyage）instead of bye.. and its like once we leave the hse, we or maybe only me (coz i am singaporean while he is from tawian) wun be able to see him again.. and the same goes for the rest of the ppl after i leave.. can really picture the day when i will be leaving.. [after a farewell gathering, with some laughters and maybe taking down contact details, i will be standing at the door, seeing them, one by one walking pass me and walking further and further away from the door till i cant see them.. and that will be the last time i will see them till dunno when le.. thats how i felt yesterday and many other farewell ocassions b4.. its lk u leave the person's hse and after tt u wun noe when u will be able to see he/she again..]

maybe i am thinking too much.. being too passimistic.. but i cant help it but feel really down coz of all these.. and it really affects my studies alot.. there are so many things to do that i dun feel like doing anything! i jus feel like sleeping forever.. i dun wanna face tml coz i will lost a fren after every tml.. i have been thru it so many times le.. i dun wanna go thru it anymore!! haiz.. life sucks..

when can i get out of this stupid cycle.. =(

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